im up at two thirty a.m. to shower and freshen up for probably the last sleepless night this semester.i know i haven't updated for way too long and there are so many things i wanna share, but havent really got time, even if i did, my wireless annoys me so much, ive lost that drive to blog. but i know by the time my portfolio is handed up, im definately gonna put up the pieces on jueru and update photos.
i shouldnt be blogging right now but doing my work, but my file's taking so long to open, i thought id might as well.

sometimes i think we go through this mental disorder where our emotions get pretty messed up, and given my personality, i tend to look into things too much, which probably makes me a little paranoid. im referring to people's behavior that is. its hard to meet someone really genuine. i think trust is the word. how do you learn how to trust someone. how do you differ the superficial and the genuine.

i just want to thank all my dear dear friends whom have stood by me. Angelina,Geraldine,Adeline,Bernice,Andy,Tulika,Yvette,Jonathan and most importantly, the dearest person in my life, Ivan. Every one of you has a special place in my heart that i'd like to keep for as long as i live.

wow.being emo is quite amazing, because i start babbling but isnt that what an online journal is all about. a platform for random thoughts and rantings.

its 4.24am now and i think i better get back to work.

xoxo.